how should i live my life?

i'm starting to feel like this is only my blog....hahahaha

i'm recently reading more and more about the concept of grace, an attribute that i've come to know that i lack.

i'm beginning to realize that it's the one attribute of Christians today that seems to be lacking the most, but as believers saved under grace...shouldn't it be the attribute that we exhibit the most as the church??

i'm not talking about avoiding the issues or allowing sin, but i'm talking like..humility, giving love despite the lifestyle of the one you bestow it upon, developing relationships with such people. really living the life God has given us like Jesus did. As i read more and more about Jesus's life, i see that he wan't concerned about who was in charge of the land he lived because as far as he was concerned, YHWH was in control of the whole world. Jesus wasn't concerned about being liked by the masses because as far as he was concerned, he loved them despite what they thought.

i'm just saying the things that usually hinder us from exhibiting the grace that we should exhibit has a lot to do with our human nature and fear. Living here has made me realize that i have no clue how to live among the unbelieving because i've been living only among the believing for so long.... i'm afraid of telling others of the true way, the gospel because i'm afraid how they react. will they accept? will they deny? will they want to avoid me for the rest of my life? sometimes i would be very very cautious as to how approach people because i'm also afraid that whatever i do will be taken as how all Christians are.

and right now living in Taiwan, i'm so concerned about how the political issues will affect the church here and the unbelieving taiwanese's attitude towards the church. i have heard so many things among people in the church (especially within a certain denomination) that have truly hurt my ears. i am so worried that the current political situation here is something that will divide the church in Taiwan. i am praying so hard for reconciliation among the people in the church and a united effort to spread God's Word to the people here. not just a united effort among missionaries. that's already been done. i'm saying a united effort among the native believers.

i need to remember that He is still in control.

to truly live as Jesus did is to be posessed by the Holy Spirit, to truly let the Holy Spirit overtake our souls so that all the humanity within us is no more. quite easier said than done when humanity seems to always spring back to life within us.

Lord, give us humble hearts, teachable hearts that show us what it means to be Christ-like. rid of all humanity within us and replace it with your Spirit so that we may show the world what it means when humanity is reunited with its Maker again.